That’s pretty much been my state of mind lately. And yes, it is most definitely a word! It may be a Jo-ism (please ALWAYS remember the o in Jo-ism 😉 ) but I use it daily. I just can’t shake the grumpiness. I can actually feel a block in my brain keeping me from not being so pissy. It’s about 2 cm from the front of my forehead. I can feel it and I don’t know how to get rid of it. I was hoping our vacation to Vegas would help break it down. Unfortunately, having my parents tag along (mainly my father) made it much less of a vacation. There were definitely moments where I felt the happiness was getting through, but I think that wound up just being the wall turning into Plexiglas. The happiness was viewable, just not accessible.
I feel so horrible. I’m not being a good wife. Britt is constantly joking around and trying to have fun, it’s just annoying me more than anything. He’s constantly trying to scare me as he does Emberly. That child will be afraid of NOTHING thanks to him. It has put me on edge. I know he’s just having fun, but it makes me uneasy. Getting mad doesn’t help the matter either. I should be able to just laugh it off, but I can’t. It just grates on me and makes everything else worse. I know I’m doing it. I even try and tell myself to lighten up. It doesn’t work.
Now add in Emberly who’s 3rd and 4th teeth are toying with the idea of popping through and our house is just THE place to be. Luckily, most of her ails can be cured with Tylenol. Even a fifth of vodka and crystal light couldn’t cure me. I’ve been trying caffeine. The second cup of coffee this morning only made my head spin. Of course I’m craving a Mt. Dew now, but I’m afraid that would make my entire body just shake. Sex would be another option, but it’s hard to get in the mood when you’re also feeling yourself get fat. It’s fun times people!
I wonder why no one is calling me to hang out?